Friday, August 29, 2008

Thoughtful Fridays


"Mom you will NEVER guess what my teacher said at school today."
"What?"
"We are studying money, again, and she said money was one of the most important things to know about. Money makes the world go round."
(Staring with disbelief and what may have been disgust.)
"Can you believe that. I mean, hello, GRAVITY makes the world go round... Love makes the world go round... Peace might help the world go round. But MONEY??? Money definitely does not make the world go round."
---Quote by Owen Reed Jennings, age 8, August 25,2008

Tuesday, August 26, 2008


This is one of the many reasons I adore and admire my eldest. He awoke this morning and lay out his clothes. At the breakfast table he turned to me with a seriousness that only Owen can pull off, "Mom I'd like to be a cowboy at school today." He grabbed one of my hats, pulled on his boots and tied on a kerchief. I saw him sprinkle a little old spice on his neck and press his shoulders back into a prideful swagger. As he got out of the jeep to meet his class, I asked if he was ready for whatever came. "Cowboys have to be willing to handle sniggers occasionally". "Don't worry Mom", he assured me, "No one will make fun of me and even if they do, you have to be who you are and cool is as cool does". Damn this boy is COOL.

Sunday, August 24, 2008


Bodhi's first day of school is Monday. I can't believe it. He is going to be in my school, right next door, and still my heart is aching at the thought of him being in toddler class.
Here he is with his new Thomas the Train back pack.

This is motherhood at its best.
We had a lovely lunch at blue sky cafe and on our way out Bodhi said "POOP". I stopped at a distant table for an emergency changing, this is what I discovered. Owen stood gagging nearby, Shane was laughing and avoiding it with stealth like reflexes (although he did manage to document the incident on his iphone) and I laughed so hard I was barely effective. Meanwhile, the onlookers stared with evident disgust at the repugnant family, bordering on hysteria, gathered around an innocent child smeared in excrement--- oh, if they only knew.

Friday, August 22, 2008

Thoughtful Fridays


"Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well."
Vincent Van Gogh

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


Back at work.
I have mixed feelings:
Sorrow, excitement, overload, frustration, guilt, longing, anticipation.
It is an interesting conundrum, this thing called life. I am always uncertain of the path ahead. I keep placing one foot in front of the other, keeping a level eye out for adventure and trying (often failing) to soften the sharp edge of my mind and just enjoy the journey.
I suppose I really am a gypsy at heart, never enjoying the feeling of tethered talons, whether to earth, to job, or to tomorrow. And yet, here I am, 34 years old with two beautiful boys, a wonderful man that drives me batty but also fills me with love and contentment. With a job and a wonderful home in a place that I love.
It is odd, how I pull against the line at my heels and ache for flight...not to escape from those I love (I could no sooner leave my boys and Shane than take a flying leap from a tall building), but rather to take leave of the predictable, the expected, the assured. That is, and always has been, my conundrum.
In the meantime, I go to work...

Kauai

Kauai!!!!!!!!
What can I say. It was as beautiful as ever, overflowing with rainbows and a panoramic vision of breathtaking splendor. The magic of Aloha, seems to blow across the wide expanse of Pacific blue with a peaceful abandon, beckoning,
toward stillness,
into the present,
into life.
I loved it, as I always do, more so this time because I got to see it reflected in Shane's eyes, in Bodhi's carefree laugh, in Owen's sense of adventure. Truly a wonderful trip.

Endless Summer here they come.

Owen picked up surfing on the first wave (he did have one on one instruction), and my heart swelled with satisfaction and pride. I nearly yelled out "That's a Lloyd out there", before checking myself. All the lost longing to be on the waves with my father and brothers, came back to me, as I watched my son skim the frothy blue with a smile spread wide across his turbulent face.

Bodhi roamed the shores with wild abandon, preferring sand and shore to shifting tides and open water.

Shane, always the natural athlete, was an instant success but a bit hard on himself. I imagine there was a back door voice whispering perfection. He got off to a brilliant start and really enjoyed it.

This picture was taken at Mahalulepu, my favorite beach, it is my quiet retreat that I return to over and over again in my minds eye. It has been my place of refuge since first I discovered it twelve years ago.
The family at Opeaka'a Falls, just before visiting the Hindu temple.

The Hindu Temple is one of Owen's favorite visiting spots. We first discovered it when he was four and the moment he lay eyes on Shiva he was in love. He arrives with reverence. We write down what we would like to free ourselves of on slips of white paper and then burn them in offering and as release. We then step towards Ganesh, the remover of obstacles and leave a gift (Owen likes to leave flowers and money), then ring a bell hanging nearby. From there we proceed through the temple grounds, winding our way through immense banyan trees, flowering plants, water features and incredible vistas, to land at the prayer temple, which houses an enormous quartz crystal and more Shiva's than I can count, plus two large statues of Ganesha and Shiva, respectively.

This was the beginning of Bodhi's illness which ended in an E-room visit, two ear infections, swollen glands and eyes, and several sleepless nights.

Kilauea Lighthouse and bird preserve.Mom and Bodhi photographed in front of the Lighthouse.
Kipu Falls.
We arrived at this lush scene and Bodhi promptly dropped his pacifier into the water rushing over the falls. Shane, in super heroic fashion, asked a local standing nearby, "Is the water deep enough to jump", after attaining an affirmative response, Shane stripped his shoes and shirt off before unceremoniously diving 25 ft. to retrieve said Binky. Bodhi now worships his father.
I jumped in a few times myself, but my trembling limbs must have overshadowed my attempts at heroic leaping.

Saying Aloha, until we meet again.

Friday, August 15, 2008

Christian the Lion - the full story (in HQ)

This is Bodhi's favorite thing. He just goes crazy asking to watch it and then watches it intently and when it's over yells, "Again, Again"

Thoughtful Fridays

There can be no greater accomplishment than to open your heart to the world and in so doing, reflect, however briefly, a truth worth believing in.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Thoughtful Fridays


I used to think the world was filled with terrifying unknowns,
and now I think the world is full of possibilities
too brilliant to comprehend.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Hello everyone
We are off on a trip to Hawaii and won't be back for two weeks....
YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will post again when I return.

He's HOME, He's home, HE'S HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bodhi won't leave him alone for 5 seconds, he keeps yelling brobro, Owen and running after him ... I think he is afraid that Owen is going to leave again if he turns his head. For now I am just happy to have both my boys.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

One of my dearest friends often asks me, "What's for supper?". It is so much more than a question about food. It is a question that plumbs the depths of the day. What is for supper, what is nourishing you, who have you invited to the table. A simple question that always says, "I am interested in you". Tonight, for supper, we had a monster zucchini, stuffed with a mixture of rice, fresh herbs, tomatoes from our garden, garlic and free-range bison. We had beans steamed with butter and seasonings fresh from grandpa's garden. We ate collard greens sauteed in olive oil with garlic, onion, and panchetta. We had a lovely cucumber salad ( sliced cucumbers and onions tossed with 1/4 cup vinegar, 1 t. sugar, yogurt, fresh dill and s/p). For dessert we ate Joannes zucchini bread (the boys did I watched them ingest the gluten with envy) and to drink we had iced sun tea.

Bodhi spent the afternoon picking veggies with Baba and I learned a few of these recipes from Mojo (pronounced Bojo).
Shane enjoyed the meal too, but maybe not so much on the stuffed zucchini.


This cast comes off Tuesday and I can hardly wait. The purple thing smells terrible, like gym socks and old sneakers, but Bodhi is unphased by the malodorous nature of his cast and uses it with apparent skill.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Hiking Lake Isabelle



What a great Friday. Joanne and I went on a guided hike into the Indian Peaks Wilderness. Our guide, James Dziezynski, (aka Dziezynski), chose a pretty straightforward 5 mile hike for us. We started at the Brainard Lake parking lot and then hiked up beyond Long Lake to Lake Isabelle, where we had lunch and watched the wind ripple across the surface of the water. The whole day was such a profound feast for the senses that I came home and fell asleep promptly at 6:30 and didn't stir again until 6 this morning.





Friday, August 1, 2008

Thoughtful Fridays


They deem me mad because I will not sell my days for gold: and I deem them mad because they think my days have a price.
---Khalil Gibran