Friday, January 14, 2011

Pain

Sadness
Gag and cough
Swallow it down,
It stays,
Perched at the back of my throat,
Howling.
I clamp my teeth and
Smile,
Hold back the river.
Shake.

Fear
"It's too deep",
I say.
"I cannot swim",
I say.
"It will wash me away",
I say.

Anger
Bellows, raging
Curses at the dam,
"MOVE!"
Ssh.
I call,
Through gritted teeth,
Shh.

Silent
Presence watching,
Witness to it all.
The water fall keeps
Rising,
Til water covers all.
Present
Awareness holding,
Crying eyes confide,
Tears too deep to humble,
Now,
Floating at my side.

2 comments:

Wind said...

Ah, the heart turned inside out and poured into words...Surprising that they stayed put long enough to read, they are so full of life....Your life.

Daeni said...

As I wish you didn't feel these things so heavily, I am also drawn into the writing. I like the chosen words of "sadness."