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patience

"Be patient towards all that is unresolved in you and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms, like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Live the questions now."
-Rainer Maria Rilke
I can remember the first time I read those words. I was in my early twenties and I was composed entirely of the unresolved. Now, in my mid-thirties, I have glimpsed the hem of resolution. When a moment of clarity arises, I want to grasp it and hold it and in that attempt I crystallize around that passing glimpse of truth, hardening at the edges. This pertinent piece of advice from Rilke's, "Letters to a Young Poet", rings as true today as it did 15 years ago and I am reminded to breathe into the question and be patient.

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Saints and Spinners said…
It's time for me to read Letters to a Young Poet again. We are in similar life-stages, I think. Thank you for visiting my blog! I enjoyed and appreciated your comment on my last story.

--Farida
November 29, 2009 at 10:23 PM
Wind said…
Ah, Rilke, On the counter of Lifeways, so many years ago... You have always been a seeker after truth, it's so beautiful to witness your birth, the one that last's a lifetime, not the one that lasts a day. The birth that you have claimed with such devotion, no matter the pain, no matter that old familiar moment, "I don't know if I can continue, this is so hard!" You have long been focused on breathing into the process, thus love is born continuously through your body.
November 29, 2009 at 10:32 PM
Profound ~Odysseus~ Alchemy said…
Love ya sis...And miss you..

Times are tough here in many ways...

Hoping they get better..

your bro
December 1, 2009 at 12:13 PM
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