This is one of my favorite photos. A heart shaped leaf caught up in the skeletal arms of a blossom gone by. I look at this photo often, trying to understand what about it has won my favor. Perhaps it is the beauty of transience. A reminder that even in death there is unspeakable splendor to be found and experienced. After rereading the recent poem post and the posts preceding, I had to chuckle. How interesting to dedicate a year to happiness in one post and devote the following post to sadness. It is perfect really. The humor in it begs clarification for my dedication and apparent inconsistencies. I don't consider happiness separate from sorrow, rather I think happiness may only be found in the peaceful acceptance of the "is-ness" of life. Devoid of my beliefs and concepts of what life is, or should be, or could be, what is there. When sadness arises in the "is-ness" of life, or "happiness" arises, wouldn't it be lovely to witness beauty within the transience. Like a dried leaf caught in the arms of a dying bloom, a spaciousness of experience...an invitation for compassion.
Yes, I know it doesn't look like much. It was only about 5 inches in diameter and 8 feet tall. The root ball was no more than 3 feet deep. But it was a sweet red-bud tree that we planted the year Bodhi was born, his placenta was buried in it's roots and like many of the trees in our neighborhood, it died (see this post to understand why) . I can't say that I mourned its death in a tangible way, rather it produced in me a sort of unnameable melancholy. I am a woman who loves the spring. I nearly live for it. When the first signs of life emerge like a haze of hope, I drink in green with the passion of a desert crawling woman sipping at an oasis. I gorge. This year has been hard. Our neighborhood isn't leafing out in native splendor, instead the tired trees seem to begrudge the effort, only offering a tender shoot or bud occasionally. The north side of many trees appear to have given up all together, too tired after a long winter...
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Small or large scale, this is a work of art. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you for the brain and spirit food!...