On my way to work this morning someone said to me, "Back to the grind stone huh? Work is work but you gotta do it!" and I burst out laughing. Work is love. Work is joy. Work is life. Work is purpose and hope and promise and inspiration and home. I go to work like a kid goes to the playground. I love my job and the many women I get to play with everyday. I love the children and their creativity and insights and view of the world. If work is the "grindstone" than it is grinding away my rough edges and false beliefs that life is hard and labor is difficult. Today I played with clay all day and held baby ducks next to my heart and nuzzled the soft backs of chicks against my face. I poured red paint lava over the top of a three foot volcano and helped children bring their ideas into form. I don't go to work, I go to play! Every single day.
Some days, you just have to forget about ‘healing’. You have to stop trying to feel better, trying to overcome your emotional wounds, or trying to be anywhere other than where you are. You have to embrace the day as it is. And you have to give yourself the most sacred permission of all: To shatter. To break. To be an ugly mess. To lean into a place of utter humility and powerlessness in yourself. To cry out to the heavens, “I can’t do this!” To admit utter defeat in the loss of the life you had imagined. To crumble to the ground, lonely and hopeless and profoundly ruined. To want to die, even. And there, in the darkest places, in the blackness of the underworld, you may begin to rediscover... life. And learn to love the beginnings. A sacred reboot: A single breath. The way the sun warms your face. The sound of a tiny bird singing in the tree over there. The raw simplicity of a single moment of human existence. Hell has been transmuted, thr...

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